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Tuesday, 07 August 2007

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    THE WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE! literally...i havent been able to stop crying. and i feel so conceited and sooooo idk. not me?

    first i lost 4 frinds in a drunken car wreck. all dead. *cry*

    then marc, my boyfriend, well he proposes about 2 months ago, and then breaks up with me...
    yeah im not ok so dont fuckin tell me it will or anything like that!!

    my friend nick commits suicide. no one ever believed him. he fuckin always threatened and **sigh**
    BOOM! he is gone....

    dustin's dump ass tried wrecking his car into a tree. he was in the hospital for 2 days.
    and he is jus happy to still be alive. GAH

    ...so i think im in hell. work is jus a pain in the ass for me. im always getting hurt and everything....

     

    new pictures:

     

     

     

    here is dustin before, happened, and after...

     

    BEFORE!

     

    FRIDAY...IT HAPPENED

     

    and on sunday, when he gets outta the hospital...

     

    **sigh** idk what to do...

     

    also new poems... ill jus post my recent one!

    The Perfect Guy - not the song i wrote jus a poem

    he's the tall boy
    he's got the deep brown eyes
    he's stubborn yet sensative
    filled with truth covered in lies

    he has the gentle touch
    he has the face of rememberance
    he is the one you'll miss so much
    he is full of independace

    holding the weight of two worlds
    holding the lives of two people
    even when its spinning upside down in twirls
    he'll still say i do at the steple

    he tries to give everything to her
    but sometimes it hurts him
    she is his one cure
    that will let him sin.

    he is the only one that can make her laugh
    when she doesnt even wanna smile
    it is a hard task
    but its worth the while

    he knows jus the words to say
    to see that slight grin
    to make her stay
    and he still lets her win

    the stupid little arguments
    the mean little fights
    he wants three kids
    and she wants someone to hold onto at night

    their dreams were coming true
    only a few more months
    thats all they knew
    and then it became tough

    she still thinks he is perfect
    but he jus denies it
    he still calls her beautiful
    and she denies it

    she wants to say i love you
    but she is to afraid
    of what he might do
    she's lost him already

    he wants to be with her
    but he refuses to try
    distance tears him apart
    and makes him wanna cry

    she'll continue to wait
    until he says i love you
    she feels faint
    and then she does things she doesnt wanna do

    i see her crying her fears away
    i watch her shake
    she has no words to say
    all i can do is break

    he is jus....

                                           p.e.r.f.e.c.t.

Tuesday, 10 July 2007

  • well its now july. i was drunk the entire 1st week of this month. and WOW! lol

    well my life hasnt really changed. i am not dating gary anymore bc he is an asshole who can burn in hell. im dating marc! yeah that kid from middle school! crazy huh?! its weird bc he is awesome! lol the kid i use to pick on and now i am dating him. jus a lil over 3 monthes. but thats bout it.

    my family are still the same. kc is getting himself into trouble all the time. and my mom is always upset. my dad...jus dont get e started on the faults in my family...

    i have good news though. i graduate in december and then in january im being shipped off for that month. when i come back in februray, i get my appartment with marc and travis! im excited for that. and college is right around the corner and im jus like WOW! time has flown the fuck by! lol

    but i am still the same girl as i was before jus more of a bitch...lol here some pix for ya'll

     

    ok enouigh of me. i starting drawing again....

    Luna and Fabien are 2 lover wolves! jus a new series i decided to start

    Together Forever was created bc marc wanted our love in a picture. so Luna and Fabien are in the front and Crystal and Joel are in the back. idk i have a colored one too and you can always find more of my drawings, tattoo designs and all that great stuff right HERE!! lol

    im done now...have a good one

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

  • i hate updating this thing and idk why i keep doing so. i guess i am jus bored and so sick of doing school work and dealing with other shit that i complain and rant online. **sigh** that is totally pathetic in my opinion. i think the life i had, i sold on ebay and i got some shit heads loser boring life. GAH! idk whats wrong with me i am jus so sick of all the drama, the bullshit, the work! i am so worn out that idk if i can take it anymore....GAH!

     

    ok im done ranting for now...

    WE ARE THE VIDEO GAMERS! lol no these boyz i've known since 7th grade and we were reuntied over the weekend!

Monday, 26 March 2007

  • its be quite a while since i have even logged into this site. and ever since the beginning of this month things have totally gone to hell! things have blew up in my face as well as my boyfriend Gary's. first his GMC truck ((fucking sexy lil thang)) gets impounded. and so i spent the night at his apt on a sunday and he got really pissed off and i had no way to get my ass to school. Marina came to get me that morning. and i got lucky. that is the first thing that happened. then Gary's parents lended him the BIG FUCKIN blazer. this thing is beefy as fuck. deisel 4.something or another. and we go 4 wheelin in it with a few friends. we go to Slaughter House Loop in Bailey, Colorado. dont get me wrong it was totally fun until we hit the snow. yeah, we got stuck!!! and another buddy of ours brought a 22 rifle. and he was shooting it. so we got arrested by the swat team! and let me tell you, some of those guys are assholes. we were stuck in the mountains for about 8-9 hours. FREEZING!!! then the swat team got there and it was about another hour. got off the mountain with the search and rescue team and spent 2 hours in an ambulance. and 5-6 hours at a search and rescue station. that was a LOOOONG night. me n taylor and David caught hypothermia. and i wouldnt be surprised if brittany did too. but she had shawn so i dont think they would have....being an asthmatic and having hypothermia is NEVER a good mix let me tell you. so we had to leave the trucks ((blazer, 3500 Chevy, and a chevy S10)) up there. and it has been 2 weeks until we can get up there again and get it out. the boys go up there on a saturday and they come back pissed off!!! i mean pissed off!!!! the blazer and the S10 were broken into. Shawn had gotten his truck out ((3500 Chevy)) so the other 2 were in trouble. the windows were broken in, the military shit was stolen outta the blazer, CB radios were taken. Gary's check book was missin. the roll bar of the S10 was taken. all the tooks. ropes, etc etc....everything was GONE!!!!! i mean, i dont even kno how to explain it. i about cried. but now the blazer is safe n sound in the shop. ((gary's shop)) so we are out of a vehilce right? we go BACK down to Gary's mom's place, to pick up another car. ((this was this past weekend btw)) a toyota celica. cute car dont get me wrong....only thing is the water pump is completly shot! no joke. we fill the coolant up and the antifreeze. and try to head up to denver again. john came with us and he found out my 2 friends were dating and it was jail bait. john has been to prision and fuckin he took off because of it. so when we get back on I-25 and we didnt get to far. it was leaking bad so we put more coolant in it. then the battery dies!!! the temp gage is fucked up so it was over heating at the same time. **sigh** so we had gary's parents come get us and tow the celica back to their place. it really really sucked! gary was able to borrow his moms truck to take me n david home. we got to the apt around 2 AM. and gary brought Bernie with him. BIG HAIRY gentle dog. i cant be around long hair dogs, so my alergies were all bad! and it jus really sucked. we watched Eragon, and i fell asleep 45 minutes into the movie. 4.30 AM he rolls over and cuddles with me. and then i knock him in the face on accident. **sigh** i swear it WAS an accident. after that, sunday he headed back to his parents in the springs after droppin me off. and he didnt get there until bout 2 pm. and then fucking i started working on a bike and i needed help so i called john and he fucking called gary and raised all hell to him because im not suppose to call him. but i really needed help. and if gary's cell phone worked i would have called him. but i wasnt gunna keep bugging gary cause he needed to fix the volvo. and fucking. GAH! he said "ill see you tonight" on sunday and that didnt happen. im jus like BLAH! fucking i cant get ahold him him and what not. and it really sucks.

    but thats basically how life is going....

    me n gary...

     

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