THE WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE! literally...i havent been able to stop crying. and i feel so conceited and sooooo idk. not me?
first i lost 4 frinds in a drunken car wreck. all dead. *cry*
then marc, my boyfriend, well he proposes about 2 months ago, and then breaks up with me...
yeah im not ok so dont fuckin tell me it will or anything like that!!
my friend nick commits suicide. no one ever believed him. he fuckin always threatened and **sigh**
BOOM! he is gone....
dustin's dump ass tried wrecking his car into a tree. he was in the hospital for 2 days.
and he is jus happy to still be alive. GAH
...so i think im in hell. work is jus a pain in the ass for me. im always getting hurt and everything....
new pictures:
here is dustin before, happened, and after...
BEFORE!
FRIDAY...IT HAPPENED
and on sunday, when he gets outta the hospital...
**sigh** idk what to do...
also new poems... ill jus post my recent one!
The Perfect Guy - not the song i wrote jus a poem
he's the tall boy
he's got the deep brown eyes
he's stubborn yet sensative
filled with truth covered in lies
he has the gentle touch
he has the face of rememberance
he is the one you'll miss so much
he is full of independace
holding the weight of two worlds
holding the lives of two people
even when its spinning upside down in twirls
he'll still say i do at the steple
he tries to give everything to her
but sometimes it hurts him
she is his one cure
that will let him sin.
he is the only one that can make her laugh
when she doesnt even wanna smile
it is a hard task
but its worth the while
he knows jus the words to say
to see that slight grin
to make her stay
and he still lets her win
the stupid little arguments
the mean little fights
he wants three kids
and she wants someone to hold onto at night
their dreams were coming true
only a few more months
thats all they knew
and then it became tough
she still thinks he is perfect
but he jus denies it
he still calls her beautiful
and she denies it
she wants to say i love you
but she is to afraid
of what he might do
she's lost him already
he wants to be with her
but he refuses to try
distance tears him apart
and makes him wanna cry
she'll continue to wait
until he says i love you
she feels faint
and then she does things she doesnt wanna do
i see her crying her fears away
i watch her shake
she has no words to say
all i can do is break
he is jus....
p.e.r.f.e.c.t.
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